Life sure has been crazy lately! This pregnancy at times feels as if its flying. Work is crazy, but a good crazy right now. Lots of work travel and visiting clients and making gains. School, while 'easier' this spring, is still a big time commitment and includes a lot of reading. Our personal life hasn't really ceased at all - we're busy with commitments and trying to find time to relax. I'm not complaining though, I love all of this. It's fast paced and busy and right up my ally!
The one thing that I've been thinking a lot about in the midst of my craziness lately is my attitude. I think a lot about a how I react to people's emotions, negative or positive, and if it's a good 'fit' of a relationship.
As a person growing a tiny human being (WOW!) I think it's important to remember that mood and attitude are so important in rearing a child. I do not want to be a parent with a constant scowl or a constant negative remark or opinion. That's not to say that I don't find it natural to have a bad day, or have a bad mood, etc. But it should not be my permanent disposition. It's not who I am.
However, I am realizing that certain things/people/events, etc bring out the negative disposition in me easier than other things/people/events, etc. So the way I see it, I have two approaches I can take.
The first option is learn how to adapt to my environment and 'deal' with it all. After a lot of pondering, I realize that I actually do this quite often, and actually quite willingly. I give a lot of pardons and extend a lot of understanding, its my nature and as much as it may hurt me at times, its the core of who I am and what makes me proud of myself. I've learned that this is not always the best approach for ME. It's the best approach for the thing/person/event on the other side.
The second option is to learn to the cut the fat, the unneedful. This is something that I have struggled with most of my life because it completely negates the first option. I typically don't like it. It seems so final, so harsh, so, IDK, not me? Plus, well, let’s face it, Irish Catholic guilt sure is a bitch. But this year I'm learning that it’s OK to cut the fat from the time to time. Things, people, events, etc they all change. And more importantly, I need to continue to keep in a good state of mind for the sake of my body, mind and soul - b/c I'm breeding another body, mind and soul.
I’ve also learned that if someone or something isn’t bringing out the very best in me, chances are I’m not going to bring out the very best in them/it. The way I see it, then everyone’s time is just wasted and life is just too short for that.
So as I sit back and enjoy the first days of my baby kicking and the daydreams of what is to come, I am going to remember that a positive attitude for me is one of the most important gifts I can give myself, and Poppy, these days and going forward. If it means I have to cut the fat from from my life in order to mantain that disposition, then that is what I will do in order to bring up my child in a loving, happy environment. After all, it’s only what the Popster deserves.
Inspiring post Colleen- please don't cut me out :) jk. I have had to learn to say no to the "bad fat" as well!
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